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Monday, February 26th, 2007
6:11 pm	fuck it why do i bother even caring? wtf!? he didnt talked to me all day saturday or sunday i know he went to that party saturday and got fucked up and he prolyl did something but do i fuckign ask no why? cause im not gonan be one of those stupid gf's that is all obsessed and shit about where their guy is 24/7 so fuck it im no gonan care anymore (big lie^^^^^^^) but anyways so today i figured things would work out he would talk to me NO!!!!!!!!!!!! i had him for fucking second period and he didnt even say hi and didnt sit with me and left me there then when he came back at the end of it he saw me all crying and sad and asked what was wrong ok!? wtf!? now he cares well fuck that love isnt worht it anymore i dont knwo what i was thinking so im just gonan live it day by day and see how it goes p.s. i got a digital camera whoop whoop Current Music: fold- stars hide fire (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 25th, 2007
6:40 pm	things... well friday night jebus picked me up after he got out of his little brothers swim meet they were hungry so we took them to mcdonalds we ended up seeing tony pilar patti janis johnny and bebop jebus got a little weird cause tony was sitting next to me but whateva after his brothers ate we left to go to his house then we were all being cute and watchingn movies then his dad came home and jebus took me home but when we got to my house we started making out then we like left somewhere lol to makeout some more haha then he took me home and liek it sucked all day i didnt talk to him and i dont get it liek why? now im super confused and it sucks cause last night i knwo he went to jaurez and i wanna knwo what happened btu im too stubborn to ever talk to him first like so im waiting for him to talk to me but he hasnt even called me today either idk now im super nervous abtuo things tghis sucks... what if he did something now im scared boo!!!! Current Music: snow- red hot chili peppers (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 18th, 2007
5:06 pm	perfect yesterday jebus called around 12 we talked about everything we both forgave eachother then we hung up and he told me hed call me later well later came he called asked if i was gonan go to red sands with everyone i said maybe he convinced me to go so he could see me him and picazo picked me up we met patti, janis, freddy, oj, jebus madrid, tony, nessa, joey, santana, beto, walter, angelica, denise, janette, dopher, and valerie there. the night was perfect...almost hahahhaha me and jebus saucedo are once again a couple i coudlnt be any happier things are great again and i dont want to mess anythign up i want to be wiht him as long as i can before he leaves in the summer Current Mood: happy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 17th, 2007
5:16 pm	i will always like him... yesterday in second period i left with freddy saucedo and picazo we went to mcdonalds to go eat we got back early so me and saucedo, instead of going back to class, talked uotside we talked alot about a lot of different things we kissed and held hands and we spent lunch together and in fourth period he ditched and i dont have a fourth period so i went with him it was me him walter and picazo we drop[ped opff walter then picazo took me and saucedo to the bank cause saucedo had to fix something and i knwo this will sound lame but it was really cute like me and him wereacting all stupid and we worte olivia loves jebus on picazos car then picazo dropped me and saucedo off at saucedos house then i met his mom again she is so cute she doesnt speak english like hardly at but if was cute how she tried talkign to me and she wasall making fun of jbs room being dirty haha idk then me and jbs went back to school i went with him to mrs sizemores class so he culd turn some stuff in then after school me and him were fine until we walked by mr andrade then i found out that earlier that day before second period he was hugging zulema or atleast thats what mr andrade said and liek mr andrade does play aruond a lot but still jbs told me to ask him what he was doign with zulema and i asked and i found out then i didnt talk to him at the soccer game and now im sad yesterday was just perfect i was happier than id ever been and now i dont even jkwno whats goign on (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 15th, 2007
5:53 pm	well... last nigh tcharlie came over and brought me valentines day presents then robert picked me patti and janis up we went to go hang out then when we went to leave and were stopped at a redlight who was in the car next to us? saucedo and zulema i got so m,ad that i cried how gay right? but whatever then all this drama happened finally we fixed everything anmd zulema oj and saucedo didnt end up coming with uis cause no one like zulema and they were backing her up then we went to walters house and watched amar te duele an awesome movie today i triedto stay strong and be mad at saucedo but i couldnt i can never be mad at him long haha we talked about things in 8th period he told me he wants to go out with me but hes afraid i would kiss someone else i told him i wouldnt then me and him kissed then we held hands i am one confused kid right now oh well ill see how things go then after school i ghad my review committee with o neil wilson and larhman it was scary btu they apporvedme coolness now im just not sure if i wanna try out idk oh well Current Music: dont speak- no doubt (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 14th, 2007
4:33 pm	valentine's day today... couldve been bette ri guess nothig special really happened i had no valentine but i did get some stuff like i got a rose and lots of candy and a kiss from jesus!!!! haha i like him, even tho i dont want to oh well its my life ill do what i want me and him kissed yesterday too the last night i went to the mall and bought the cutest outfit ever a red dress and some nice heels io looked cute atleats i think so haha but today... i have no plans maybe something will happen maybe nothing oh well anyways happy valentines day kiddos! (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 11th, 2007
1:56 pm	yesterday.... today..... so yesterday i fell asleep until like 5 ashley got mad haha ashley came over we got ready then bebop and cody cam eover then we waited for johnny to come pick us up we all looked hot we went to beni's cousins place or whatever for the party lots of gangstas hahah i saw jessie me him and monster left to go get wired by the time we came back it got raided we took off to jessies house stayed about half an hour then monster took me home long night i didnt go to sleep at all now im kinda tired haha oh well today... got ready went to church saw sean and carlos there came home me and mom made breakfast yummy!!!! my mom called we had to go see her it sucked shes a loser im not talking to her at all but hey ive already given her too many chances i cant trust her anymore theres nothing left for me to give her shes not my mom anyways ashley should be coming over in a little hwile then we shall go to the mall hopefully if i feel up to it (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 10th, 2007
11:49 am	this morning well last night i went to sleep actually very early i went to sleep at 10 haha my grandma made fun of me cause i went to sleep before she did haha oh well and well this morning i woke up at 9 and was in a very good mood i woke up made me some food and began to work out i know right? me work out? hahahahahah but i did and now i feel a lot better its like it took some of my stress away its an amazing feeling haha wat a fag right? lol well i guess i should go take a shower now and prepare for the day awaiting me i want to go to the mall later to buy me a valentines day outfit anyone wanna come? well bye Current Mood: accomplished (Comment on this)
Friday, February 9th, 2007
7:54 pm	c'est vendredi!!!! well today is friday finally... i woke up this morning looked fairly nice oj took me to school th peroid went well learned some shit to say in french played a game 6th period we presented out PSAs ours was actually pretty cool but some other group beat our for sure hah a me and mandy wrote a letter to patti telling her how much shes changed she got mad and sad and cried just liek she has been thepast like 2 weeks she turned in to an emo kid for sure and i dont knwo what to do anymore to try and help her im at a complete loss im basically the only friend she has now and trust me i wont be if she keeps acting liek she is now all i have to say is that she needs to start chnaging or else things just wont be the same anyways paul took me to mcdonalds for lunch it was mignon. nothing happened 7th period my teacher asked if i missed jesus i replied that no i was actually in a better mood wihtout him haha which to a certain extent is true cause lately i have been in a better mood (excluding the patti situation) 8th period was ok i finished my layout came home around 5:30 when my g-ma finally picked me up hah a made me some dinner then got the phone call "hello may i speak to mrs gonzalez?" handed her the phone she began to cry and hung up "olivia your mom overdozed on her prescription meds and was shooting up cocaine" i sahouldve known better i shouldve known shed never change yet i still believed in her i believed that hey mayeb one day she will love me mayeb she will finally realize that shes a mom and has a daughter to be there for but no my hopes and dreams have crashed down yet again my grandma asked if i wanted to go visit her in the hospital i thoguht it was best if we didnt go the last time she was in the hospital and i went to see her, she cussed me out and told the nurses that i would never be her daughter its not worth it i may love my mother until the end of time but i will never forgive her for the things shes done and said to me we had to go pick up her dog tho its name is dudley its retardly hyper active and annoying oh well... i dont even want to go out tonight i just want to stay home and cry. [emo] haha bye. Current Mood: blank Current Music: what goes around- justin timberlake (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 8th, 2007
10:08 pm	today today went well i guess.. picazo lives with his mom now so oj took me to school today i got there later than usual around 8:30 mr hunts class we took notes mr normans i did my essay for 3rd lunch i ate nachos and sat with sants and joey 3rd was actually cool we actually got to talk in that class fourth i played volleyball and weighed myself hahahahahahaha fatass for sure after school i came home me and mom made some badass chicken alfredo mmmmmmmm delicious then i told my grandma about the cheer meeting then i sai dhow i was kicke dout she wasnt that mad actually not mad at all surprisingly we went to the meeting came home watched greys anatomy and now computer i still miss jebus of course and i didnt even talk to tony today :( Current Music: fall out boy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 7th, 2007
4:40 pm	and so it is... just like you said it would be... well now we dont talk anymore. which sucks. i miss him like woah! you cant even imagine. i mean i know i will never forget him. even tho we only dated a short amount of time, he will stay in my heart forever and always. but for now i must get over him. i know right? how can you say you like someone and at the same time say you wanna forget about them? idk.. its hard, and very much confusing. i want to be with him but hes a liar and a hypocrit. i never knwo when hes telling me the truth. he says he likes me. he tells my friends he wants to forget about me. boys these days.. well i gave him what he wanted. or atleast what he todl my friends he wanted. and thats time. thats time away from eachother. time without hugging kissing ro other things we did. and him being out of ton until sunday or monday will help out a lot. liek today he wasnt here since he left yesterday. and well the day went on, smoothly. no interruptions. no distractions. just calm clear thinking olivia. for once. and although i miss him uncontrolably this is a must for me not to talk to him. but i knwo that in my heart if he came back right nwo and came up to me and said "olivia go back out with me" i wouldnt hesistate and woudl immediatly retort "yes!" for i am just a silly girl with her head in the clouds and her heart belonging to another. some may claim that i myself am i hyppocrit for being mad at him but i must disagree. yes i did kiss tony and yes i do believe i have feelings for tony as well, but no feelings could compare to the ones i feel for my teddy bear. as for now i cant picture my life without him but i know that sooner or later it was bound to end for he is leaving to college and graduating. i just wish we wouldve ended on better terms. as for me and tony, same thing. hes a sweetie for sure, and i liek him but things will never be serious between me and him. hes not ready and im not ready to make him especially when i knwo i would give him up for my teddy bear in a heart beat. and well i guess to a ceratin extent i myself am neither ready for a serious commitment for if i was i wouldnt be kissing others, si or ke no? well i guess i just really need some time to think about things in my life; boys, love, school, family, etc... well this week off from jesus will really help. i hope... i just wish for a sign so i may know what to do and in which path to follow. well ordale pres, ya me voy a dormir! sleepy for sure! bye Current Music: the blowers daughter- damien rice (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, February 5th, 2007
7:59 pm	sad and lonely girl what the hell. im not just some toy to play with. im a girl. with feelings. you cant just talk to me and not talk to me whenever you feel like it. you cant just have sex with me and then decided its best for us not to talk. and liek you tell all my friends how you wish i would just leave you alone yet when its me an dyou talking to tell me the complete opposite. i dont understand. i thats what you want then stop being such a pussy about it and fucking tell me. you ac tliek they havent alkready told me. is that why you havent caus eyour just waiting for me to tell you how i know, cause if so then thats just sad. like your the one who wanst this not me. and then you say your not a liar! wtf?! i knwo i kissed yur friends i know thats wrong but theres nothing i can do about it now. we were pretty much alone all saturday you couldve said something there but you didnt. and its just hurting me inside that you cant be honest ith me. if i ever even once for a second meant something, you would be able ot tell me. we are only hurting ourselves by keeping this going. it doenst have to be this way. but yeah la neta. lets just forget it. and drop things here. no more. i cant talk to you knowing im never going to have you again. it would just hurt too much. sorry but it ends here. Current Mood: lonely Current Music: baby come on- +44 (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 4th, 2007
9:13 pm	so... ok i like jesus i do, but i liek someone else also. and liek ive already given jesus a chance right? and he took advantage of it. he broke up with me so i wouldnt get hurt and instead i got more hurt then i ever could. on the other hand, the ther guy i like has hurt me too. he wanted to stop talking to me, but now we are friends again. well mayeb something more. i just dont knwo whats going on anymore. im like way super totally confused. i dont nkwo who too choose. and either way neither are actually seriosu i dont think. i just dont want to contnue doing stuff with each of them behind their backs, and end up hurting osmeone in the end. and that someone is pretty much gonna end up being me. i already feel it. i knwo i shouldnt be messing with them. but im not. the turth is i wanna be with both. why cant i have both and be happy. why must i decide now. why? (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 27th, 2007
1:21 am	wow well i havent written in thise forever... since the summer i believe... right after that drama at laurins kickback thing... well a lot has happened since then. for starters i am now a junior. i broke up with josh finally in liek ocoberish i think... he turned out to be a real big jerk. but then i found better people. i begin partying and hanging out with picazo, pilar, jebus, oscar, saucedo, patti, janis, vanessa, joey, freddy, walter, jasmine, beto, dario, santana, tony, and well yeah the list goes on. they are all seniors except me patti nessa jasmine and joey... its gonan really suck next year without them. we all became so close over these past few months. they honestly helped me to be a better person than i was being whiel i was hanging out with delta. theres no drama. its just fun. i admit i drink more but i dont get out of control liek i used to. and thats good thing. im not as wild. im more calm and settled down i think. i mean theres always that once in a while right? haha... but in all honesty they have become some of my best friends and i know ill never forget them... i did end up liking liek 3 of them tho lol so those ones i probably wont froget even more hah a a lot of stuff did happen tho during november... i fell for picazo [the homecoming king] and well i thought he liked me back or well i knwo he liked me back but all of a sudden i dont knwo what happened... he went with misty... and is still basically all in love with her. but im happy for him. i mean thats what i want, is just for him to be happy and i mena its still cool cause hes my friend... and always will be. then at the same time pretty much but towards the end of me liking picazo i fell for jesus saucedo. everyone thinks hes a jerk or a dick or pretty much yoru average asshole. he is. except with me soemtimes. liek when i fist started talkgin to him and liking him, he was a sweetie for sure. he could make me laugh and anyone who knwos me knwos that if the guy can make me laugh, i like them lol. but well i ended up going out with him december 28th. he broke up with me and broke my heart two weeks later. he started talkign to the girl he used to liek before me, nd he needed time to tell her he couldnt talk to her anymore and he needed to figure out what he wanted. yeha right... all i wish is that he wouldnt have led me on so much. i mean before he went out with me he told me that he could picture us lasting a long time liek up until he left for college. he lied. and that hurt the most. i did have sex with him tho. not that i can rmemeber it much caus ei was so drunk. it was on new years. now i just wish that wouldve never happened. oh well... never regret anything that once made you smile i guess right? then i liked tony, and i basically still do... i met tony a logn time ago but he usuallyneve rhangs out with us. i dont know why... but yeah,.. ahiel back when i was liking picazo, one of my best friends mandy was into tony. she liked him a lot. but he didnt liek her in return. he was more in to this other girl named brianna who was also playing tony with her real boyfriend alex who she just moved with in austin to go to UT with him. she broke tonys heart and he broke mandys heart. anyways.. a few weeks ago i played baseball with him and santana and later that night i had a link crew lock in. tony ended up going. hes not even in link crew but whatever. well it lasted until 6 in the morning.. and well before the night wa over, me and tony kissed. i mean we were together the whole night and when it got to the part of the lock in where we got to go to slepe and watch movies and lay down, tony layed down with me, and we talked, and then we kissed. we kissed alot. then he todl his best friend santana he wanted to start talking to me more. so we did. then last weekend, we went to a party at some guys house by loretto. tony went with us. everyone drank alot. mostly nessa haha. so tony had take off early so he could take nessa and joey hem cause they had ot be home by one. first he dropped me off and then took nessa and joey and santana home. then he came back to my house. he stayed here until 4 in the morning. it was great. no we didnt have sex if thats what your thinking. but we did have fun lol. and well anyways this week on tuesday we had a snow day. tony and santana came to my hosue early. then sants went to get nessa. tony stayed with me. we kissed. it was perfect. hen he had t go back to school. later that day i ended up kissing picazo too but thats just cause we were dirnking a lot. i mean we've already been through that right? well anyways tony came back after school to nessas house which is where we all were. he ytook em home and held my hand the whole way. we kissed me before i went inside. then wednesday mandy todl em she stillliked tony. i didnt knwo what to do so i told her about me and him. we both stareted crying. but she said she couldnt get mad because now she has a bf. i todl tony after school what happeend. he told me today he thinks its best that he just doesnt talk to eithe rme or mandy. if thats the case i wish i coudl go back and not do anything with him, because if i had to hurt a friend over nothing thats ever gonan happen, then that sucks. now i still liek tony and saucedo a lot even tho both are jerks lol but hey thats what evry girl wants right? i mean we all say we want the sweethearts but when it comes down to it, its the assholes we notice more right? i mean take for instance, i had charlie, i coudlve gone out with him. hes the sweetest guy i know! i mean come on now, hes my future husband lol. but right when i had the chance i chose saucedo instead. and look how that turned out. now me and him dont even talk. i dont understand who afetr you have something special with someone you can just stop talkign to them. i mean if im not gonna have them in my life as boyfriends, then i wish i could atleast have them as friends. guys just arent worth it now adays. also im an no longer in cheerleading. i got kicked out. for bad grades. im also not in delta. im in the party crew XC [xhocker chicks] haha me and snatana made it up. he boys are txb haha also i miss my starla. she is my bestest friend in the whole world. and lately so much has been going on with both me and her that we hardly talk. we just keep drifyting apatr and that cant happen. i dont knwo what id do without her. shes my other half. i mena whats salt without pepper? whats shoes without feet? whats olivia without starla? and then this whole collge thing. what are me and her gonan do. she cant go out of town. and that was our whole plan. i mean its not bad if we stay here in el paso. but we just wished for more. i love her tho and im gonan stay with her wherever we go.. oh yeah also something extreme that has hppened is that my grandparentsa are divorced. i feeel as if its my fault wihch it mostly is. i coudlnt stand my grandpa and now i miss him lots. even tho hes an ass soemtimes, i mean hes my homie! now me and grandma live far away form my old house. i miss it lots. it was so close to my friends, so close to my whole life! i just wish i could go back to my 8th grade year and change everything! thats when it all started when my mom got in that accident. if i could go back i would call her and tlel he rnot to go out. then none of this wouldve ever happened. i wouldnt know about my mom and her "habits" i would still eb living with both my gpa and my gma. i would still liveb in my old house. i would still be happy! but i cant go back, not now, not ever. and every time i think about it i think that yes a lot of great things have happened since then but more things have gone wrong. i just wish i could be those happy people where their lives are perfect and everythign is great, but im not, and i dont think ill ever be. happiness is overrated anyway. i mean now a days who really is happy? no matter how hard you try, life isnt perfect an di gues sim glad i learned that at a young age. as for love, i dont believe in it. i think people dont put enough effort anymore. nothing is romantic. nothing is beautiful. nothing has feeling. therefore how do you know love. i think people just settle for the best they find at that moment. if hes nice and stable, then hes suitable. but dont settle! look for love! wait for love! prove to me that there really is the one special person in the world out there for you! show me love is still real! please! i beg of you! prove to me that peopel still care about others! if i ever see that, then i shall change my perspective on things, until then, ill remain the same. well i guess ive written quite a lot. which probably isnt everything but hey, its all good still. until next time, olivia! Current Mood: lonely Current Music: this year's love- david gray (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 16th, 2006
2:54 am	why? why am i so dumb?! liek seirosuly what the fuck was i thinking! i dont know why i do what i do... i knwo he way i am and i continue to dothis dumbass shit! wtf!? seriously!? fuck! ok well friday laurin had a little kick back at her house and i ende dup drinking ot much and mad eout with angel and then with bob... bob is ingaged! hes getting fucking married!? why the fuck did i do that!? and then liek angel saids he needed to talk to me so i went inside to talk to him and he made me feel so bad! liek i mena i knwo he didnt do it on purpose butits just he confuses me soo much! liek i know he doesnt give a fuck about me! like seoirusly he doesnt! he just lieks the way i look and likes using me... and i let him! why!? i have no fucking idea! liek seriosuly i dont.. maybe i liek him but how coul i liek him?! he smy friend!? you dont liek friends! you just care about them... and so maybe i just care baout him but idk... like he just asked me why i did that with bob and why wasnt i with him... which is a good question cause usuall i am with him! seriosuly i am always the one making out with him butfriday night was different.... it was weird... and way too dramtic! liek omg! drama drama drama! idk... and like i asked hgim why didnt he take care of me liek he usually doe and he said cause i didnt have a bf now and we were boht ingle na dhe couldnt tlel em what to do anymore and i mean liek wtf!? he could have atleast stopped me and bob form doing that caus enow im a homewrecker! i mean if angel carewd anythoign about me he wouldve prevented it! im not blaming him tho, it is my fgault! im a dumbass! im naive! im stupid! im slutty i guess but liek now angel doesnt want ot talk to me and i care way to much about my friends to ever lose one! what do i do now? should i tell him and ttry talking ot him today at the park? idk... and then liek omg! after the party starlas dad came and picked us up and i was crying and then he like started getting mad at starla! wtf!? omg! i liek didnt knwo what to do so i had to lie to him so hed stop getting mad at her! i hate it when she is sad... caus ethen it makes me even more sad! omg! i was so scared and sad and confuse dbut thatnk god he let her stay at ,y hosue that night.. and then liek we just came inside and cried... cried anc cried some more... i havent cried liekthat in a long long long itme and i dont even know why i was crying so hard.. i guess im just emo liek that lol... but idk i just dont knwo whats going on anymore... i just need to change myself and the way i act and what i do... i just need to change Current Mood: confused Current Music: history- funeral for a friend (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, June 11th, 2006
2:40 pm	well yeha laetly things couldve been better... me and josh have been fighting a lot abou tthe stupidest of things... i think hes cheating on me but idk for sure... he says im always complaining... he is always mad... he says im never home... but idk... i mena i love him wiht my whole heart but things just dont seem to be going right... this whole weekend he was practically mad at me so i didnt see him at all.. finally last night we talked about hitngs and so tomarro wim gonna go visit him at school <3 thank god starla has been there for me... i feel bad tho cause like shes always so happy about jason and then here i was like all weekend being a little loser and crying! i suck! starla rox! haha thats why shes my bestest buddy! well yeah... i guess ill try o get some sleep cause yeha i was laying down in my bed trying ot fall asleep so i could be ble to wake up in the morning to go to school but i just cant fall asleep... oh well i guess ill ttyl and go try again :) Current Mood: mellow Current Music: modern swinger - pink spiders (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, May 26th, 2006
4:17 am	yeah this completely sux ass! i knew somethign bad was gonna happen and i just let it happen! im so dumb! last ngith at my party, the cops came, like we didnt get in trouble or anything but still... and like after everyone left some came back and brought some beer an dliek my g-ma came home early and fuck! she saw the beer and everything and im totally screwed! she is so fucking mad! she hates me practically! i dont know how shes ever gonna trust me again... im just so stupid... Current Mood: disappointed Current Music: chunk ya deuce up- lil keke (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 21st, 2006
1:26 am	hey hey hey ya'll! so whats up? as for me im just here at my casa dreaming of starla! haha this weekend was such a blast! on friday me and starla wnet ot some party and yeha it was pretty cool and then afterwards we almost had ot walk home but some dudes picked me angel and starla and jason up then we went to take angel home and after that i drove aroudn for al ittle hwile (understatement: i drove around for like an hour) while starla abd jaosn made out haha they are so cute <3 but anywys then i ende dup falling asleep while we were in the cara dn when i woke up i had no fucking idea where i was! i was so scared an di feel bad cause i ws getting all mad at jason and told him to go away! im sorry but yeh then on saturday me and starla wne tot the skate park and jimmy fell and hurt himself really bad and i got super super scared and cried i hope jimmy decided to go to the hospital but idk hes my dad! i dot want him to be hurt and then after that we went back to starlas and watched some tv and yeha i fell asleep and then today i cam ehome and like i already miss my little starla muah! but yeah il see her later today casue im taking her and hayley to the movies it hsould be exciting :) well write back some other time! see ya'll ps i also got my hair cut today but its not as short as i want it to be so whatever ill get it cut some more hpopefully this coming weekend '] pss i forgot that my friend davids chick got pregnant and he like called starla yesterdayt and hen he told us we started crying well i started crying starla wanted to but she just gave me the phone instead an domg! hes all growed up now!? Current Mood: energetic Current Music: get freaky- pitbull (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 16th, 2006
8:42 am	hey hey hey ya'll! well i just wanna say hey mostly and just basically update this ole' thang! haha well yeha this last week and htis week have been kinda chaotic for me my boufriend josh is jusyt being dumb about things but whatever... hes weird but yeha hes like always getting mad at me for dumb reasons and like i cant really say anythign more cause i kinda did somehting bad on saturday but whatever... what he doesnt know wont hurt him haha thats messed up but yeah besides that... im staring to liek someone else this someone else is a great, cute, sweet, nice, funny, cool, guy that im starting to fall for and like yeah... hes such a sweetheart! awe ::daydreaming of cocoa:: but yeah hes awesome! and liek now i dont know what to do about josh but hhmmm... i just gotta htink things thorugh and see who i like better btu i mean i especially dont know what to do caus elike josh said he ewas sorry fpr everything and like he really meant it... i think... well i hipe he meant it but whatever... i feel like im happier with cocoa tho... idk! gosh1 why are boys so confusing!?!?!?!?!?!?! hah a but yeha im a teenager! im sixteen! im a girl! and we all know girls just wanna have fun so i guess i should sotp worrying about htings right!? plus its bad for my coplection to have stress! haha that sounded so conceited huh?! well whatever... im jusyt gonan see what happens.. and yeah... whatever i choose, i know ill end up happy an di mena eveyrthing happens for a reason so yeah... if you have any advice just leave comments lol nobody will read this except starla :) i love you star! muah! starla + jason = <3 Current Mood: confused Current Music: hands down- dashboard oncfessional (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 9th, 2006
8:57 am	so yeah... im bored... lol i dont really know what to write hmm.... today was a good day! i liked it a lot! i was moslty with my boyfriend and amanda i <3 josh haha hes so sweet! ::dreaming:: but im sorta starting to like someone else to i think.... but im not sure yet it could just be a flingy thingy but nothing would ever happen anyway caus ei like josh to much! :) well yeah... ttyl i guess... Current Mood: loved Current Music: Lovefool- the cardigans (Comment on this)